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♥ Hello there! My name is Mindy and I am a 24 year old wannabe blogger from the Philippines. I have been blogging on and off for about 13 years. This is a PERSONAL blog where you will find my random musings and thoughts.
Unsent Letters
/ Thursday, December 15, 2016 /
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Here are a bunch of thoughts I've been having the past year in "letter form" to some people that I could never really say to them personally. I'm not going to address them specifically but if you think you know who they are addressed to, let me know in the comments. ;) Oh and PS. I wrote most of these letters at 4 in the morning during some of my insomnia nights. HE HE HE
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+++ What we had was toxic but I don't regret anything about the experience. It was fun while it lasted. I'm sad it took me this long to see who you truly are. My heart doesn't feel as heavy anymore and I'm glad I stood up for myself this time and cut you out. The only way I could do that was to ignore you completely. And that is what I did exactly. Sorry if I had to ignore you every single time you tried to reach out. It was just to late to repair things and I had already made up my mind about us. I'm not bitter or anything. I'm just really glad that it's all behind us.
+++ I don't know you anymore and I don't think I want to start knowing you again anytime soon. It's weird seeing you like this because you've changed so much. And don't get me wrong, I am all for your change but sometimes I can't help but wonder if you're truly okay with where you are right now because I know how "dark" it can get for you. After everything that has been said and done, I can't help but be a little concerned for you. I really hate that about myself.
+++ This whole situation is all sorts of complicated and we both know that. The circumstances are weird but I'm glad we have our little understanding of how things should be.
+++ Thanks for always being there when I have "adulting/life problems". I know you get them too and I love talking about them with you because it makes me feel sane again. Like everything is completely normal and maybe a mental breakdown isn't really necessary. Hahahaha! We rarely see each other but I'm glad nothing changes when we do. I'm happy that you've stayed in my life for this long.
+++ I told you my deepest darkest secret and you judged me. You tell me things and I support you. The only reason why I even opened up and told you was because I thought that you wouldn't judge me. That is what surprised me and what's done is done. So this is where we are, awkward conversations none of us want to have. We grew apart. Life happens. It just sucks that it has come to this.
Labels: Personal Mixtape Mondays | Vol. 10 / Monday, December 5, 2016 / 0 comments (+)
Another Monday, another mixtape. Here are a bunch of songs, old and new, that I have be listening to lately. I skipped posting 1 mixtape because I felt that I was really behind with these so here is MIXTAPE vol. 9.
If you find interest in any of these songs let me know by sending a comment my way or if you have any new music suggestions, I am always open to them! :)
Labels: Mixtape Escape / Wednesday, November 30, 2016 / 0 comments (+)
escape
verb es·cape \is-ˈkāp, es-, dial iks-ˈkāp\
: to get away from a place (such as a prison) where you are being held or kept
: to get away from a dangerous place or situation
: to get away from something that is difficult or unpleasant
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I'm just going to get right into it....
Fact: I have no idea what I'm doing right now. I've been having a hard time deciding between what I want in life and what I need in life. I believe this is called the millennial quarter-life crisis. It's real, I googled it. Hahahahaha I mean, it's not like I have no direction in life... it's more of there are so many directions in my life that I don't know which way to go. I am definitely a Gen X-er's worst nightmare.
What do I do to constantly fill the gaping hole of this "quarter-life" crisis? I like to escape.
My favorite thing to do is escape. Not that I'm being held hostage or anything but I enjoy getting away from real life once in a little while. (who doesn't?) I like to call it "recollecting" myself. I feel that being in a different place helps me realize things. (Because Kylie Jenner knew what she was talking about when she said that 2016 is the year of realizing things. HAHA!)
I love escaping to places that I know will never trigger my anxiety no matter how many times I go back. And I love to escape with people who also have the need to do exactly the same. It's easier to just leave whatever I'm feeling during that moment at the place where I have escaped to and let it drift away in the wind or in the currents or in the trees or in dirt.
It's sort of like my personal high. (Don't do drugs, kids!) I feel so fucking great every single time I escape. And I know some of you reading this will think, "Oh my god Mindy, you escape because you're so lazy. Face your fucking problems blah blah blah..." And I kinda know where you're coming from but this is how I actually face my problems. HAHAHA! (This and writing in my journal are how I face my life problems.)
So the next time you feel like shit because you've got problems (big or small), give yourself a much needed break and escape.
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In regards to this millennial quarter life crisis situation I'm in, it's nothing to be worrying about. It's not like I'm proud and boasting about it. I'm just stating that it exists and that I'm aware of it. BECAUSE I LIKE TO SELF DIAGNOSE MYSELF WITH THINGS BASED ON MY GOOGLE SEARCHES, OKAY?
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